I set my watch for daylight saving time but forgot to switch my phone over, which is also my alarm. At least I have plenty of time to get ready for work.
I messaged Heather this morning to say hello, the conversation turned toward our mom, as it usually does at some point:
Brandi: I haven’t talked to mom since she left me that voicemail.
Heather: Damn.
I texted her and asked if everything was ok… she said ‘yea! Why?’
Brandi: Figures.
Heather: And then I said ‘where are you staying?’… And she said ‘motel 8, how did you find out?’
Yeah, I know.
Brandi: ugh.
Heather: I told her I asked you how she was doing and you told me what happened.
Brandi: What did you tell her?
What did she say to that?
Heather: She said… ‘I don’t bother Brandi anymore. She’s got it made’ and I asked what she meant and she said ‘she married Lawrence for his money but I don’t want to talk about Brandi…’
Brandi: Oh, my God.
Are you serious?
Heather: Yeah, I know.
Brandi: That makes it easy for me not to help her.
That really hurts my feelings.
Heather: Yeah, I know. I don’t know why she says things like that. She’s just bitter Brandi. And she has no right to judge people. She says I’m stuck up- as far as I know, I’m not.
As far as most people are concerned, I’m not stuck up.
I’m a pretty nice person.
Brandi: I know but it’s like she gets everything she can from me and then when I’m exhausted she just shits on me.
You’re not; at all… you’re very caring.
She’s just vicious.
Heather: if I was stuck up, I wouldn’t talk to mom and help her…
Brandi: I agree.
I’m going to call her and tell her off.
Heather: Please don’t.
Please, please don’t.
Just stay calm and let it pass.
Brandi: I can’t do it… i can’t make you look like a snitch.
But I really want to tell her how it is now.
Heather: I know. Trust me… there have been several times where I’ve found something out and just wanted to call mom and tell her off.. I know that feeling.
Like when you told me she said I’m stuck up, or when you told me she tells tiff and Richie you’re a bitch, or when you told me she buys weed with her money when she can’t even pay her bills.
All of those things (plus many others) really piss me off.
I know she lies to me.
All the time.
Brandi: I’m done with her, I think I’m going to call AT&T and have her blocked.
Heather: I’ve confronted her about it (calmly) saying why did you lie about such and such. And she would either deny it or come up with an excuse… I’m just like, whatever.
Don’t do that.
Brandi: I’m serious; I’m tired of being some kind of toy to her.
And she does the same to you and all of us.
As long as we have something to give her, she stays in touch.
Heather: Well I’m not gonna block her. I love her and I still want to have a relationship with her. No matter the bad things.
Brandi: Heather, I tried. You know how much I used to resent her… and then I decided that she was my mom and that I should try to have a relationship with her.
But it seems like every time that happens I end up hurt.
Maybe you can handle it but I can’t.
Heather: Well that’s up to you. I think maybe you just need a break from her. But you shouldn’t block her out completely.
Brandi: Why not? She’s made it obvious she doesn’t want anything to do with me anymore
Argh. She makes me so mad.
Heather: She’ll come around.
Brandi: Like a stray cat
Who needs that kind of abuse?
