Rest In Fits

I could not stay asleep last night, I kept waking randomly – no sounds, no bad dreams, L wasn’t moving in bed.  Then, oddly enough, his alarm clock went off this morning and I slept through it; I woke up after he’d been sitting there smoking a cigarette for a few minutes.  He left the bedroom after kissing me goodbye and I fell right back asleep but woke up panicked because it was too dark in the room to see features but there was a silhouette standing the in the doorway of the bedroom.  He’d forgotten something and came back to get it but in my exhaustion I didn’t recognize him and called out for him.  It was a very scary moment and I couldn’t fall back asleep after he finally did leave, so I’ve been up since 5 this morning.  I haven’t taken my Ambien in a while but I think tonight I will.

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